Whole...23?

Well, I failed. I made it through 23 days. 

Now let me try to explain what happened. I truly don't even know why I did it. I had barely eaten all day, and was sitting at work doing paperwork. There were chocolate-mint candies and I just grabbed them and put some in my mouth. "What did I just do?" I thought as I chewed. It was crazy! The mixture of not enough fuel in my body, boring paperwork, and hormones was what got me. It was dumb! It wasn't even a craving; like, I wouldn't normally even want those candies. It was just a moment of total oddness. 

I instantly went back to eating "normal" foods and I didn't notice TOO much difference except for burping more and heartburn. That kind of made me mad; I was hoping all the bad food would make me feel worse so I wouldn't want to eat it anymore! My Zantac 100 is being put to use. I think it's the dairy and grains that do it!

During Whole30, I watched a few documentaries on food. Food, Inc was a huge one that opened my eyes to all the CRAP that is in our "food" here in America!!! This, plus Whole30, has me thinking I'd like to eat mostly paleo, organic, and only grass-fed beef from now on. Chicken is questionable! 

Whole Foods opened on the other side of town and I love it. I bought some fresh organic blueberries, strawberries, and green beans and find myself craving them! I'm going to try another place called Fresh Thyme to get some more fresh produce and some meat. 

One thing that WAS worth it was the 15 pounds I lost!!! Whoo hoo!

Thank you all for the prayers during my Whole30 journey! That's the only reason I made it as far as I did! And most importantly, I gotta give a huge shout out to miss Katie because she is still going strong! Only 2 days left! I think we have both learned much during the process and will take it into account when making future food choices! 

 

Ten Years

A few months ago I started having horrible dreams about Jameson's death. I think my subconscious was thinking about how the 10 year anniversary was coming up. One morning after waking from one of them, the Lord gave me first two lines of this poem and a concept. Though we've been suffering on earth without him for 10 years, Jameson has been in Glory with Jesus for 10 years. 

Yesterday, I sat down and wrote the rest of the poem in about 10 minutes. There's a ton I could do to tweak it and alter it, but I want to leave it in its "natural" state. I called my Dad and Grandma to read it to them and it made Gram cry so I figured I would leave it as is. Here it is: 

Ten Years

10 years of sorrow

10 years of pain 

10 years of sadness

10 years of rain

Our lives changed on that day

Never the same

This world's tragic loss 

was Heaven's sweet gain

Jamo's with Jesus

Wouldn't come back again

He's had

10 years of joy

10 years above 

10 years of worship

10 years of love

10 years are gone

So much has changed

We all often wonder 

Where he'd be today

We may always ask why

We may never understand

But we know he's safe

In his Lord's precious hands

        -S.Seger

 

 

God bless Jamo's family today and always. Love them! 

 

Days 20-22

Friday, Day 20: I am getting sick of frying stuff and making my apartment smell so yucky! I thought my microwave vent was sending the smell out the roof but no, it just blasts it into my apartment! I now cook with the sliding glass door open and sometimes have a fan blowing outside!

Saturday, Day 21: Somehow I stumbled across 

this recipe and decided to try it. Horrock's had some sweet potatoes with "white flesh" but it tasted like a regular sweet potato! The avocado sauce was delicious and I highly recommend the recipe. I think next time I'll eat it with a regular potato though. 

Sunday, Day 22: I could not sleep until 3-something am! I woke up around 11 this morning and super hungry. I found another recipe from that same

blog and made it for breakfast. I cut it in half though because 4 bananas is a lot! This afternoon I took a 2 hour nap and ate a Larabar and that's all so far. Very weird day. That was only the 3rd nap I've had since day 1! Normally I nabbed five days a week, at least!

I've been watching food documentaries on Hulu, and boy, I don't want to eat this "food" we have in America! It's just disgusting what is done to process the "food" we eat on a regular basis. I'm definitely going to try to buy grass-fed or local beef only, as well as organic food as much as possible. 

I'm very ready to be done with this program, and if the right thing comes along, I will probably cheat and quit. But not on something crazy like donuts or anything! The documentaries are really making me change my thoughts on what I will eat. 

I'm going to go finish a documentary about a guy who eats 40 tsp of sugar a day. I bet that wouldn't be hard for me to do pre-Whole30! America loves sugar!